Another victory

On Thursday I have a big Dr appointment for DS. The appt is with a specialist we have never met and is expected to be approximately 1.5 hours in length. I think I can do it - might need to take some Clonazepam before I go to make it easier. the problem is that we can't take DD with us. She would be very distracting and we need to focus. I asked a friend to watch her while we go. She has never been left with anyone before so it's a big deal all round.
Today we were to go to the friend's (new) house so DD could get used to it ready for Thursday. I have not been going to people's houses these past few months aside from very recently attending a Bday party (that was a Huge hurdle but I managed it).
I had my plan with prepared excuses in case I needed to leave (she is not a close friend - I watch her DD while she works). I had my water and meds with me. DH and DS came too to check out the new house.
I felt pretty much OK - a bit dry mouthed and some throat tension but I felt reasonable and stayed longer than intended. I was so pleased that it went OK.
On the way home I needed to stop at the drugstore. the rest of the family waited outside while I ran in for a few things. How different from when I went for the first time after my agoraphobia started. I confidently strolled around the store, browsing. No need to scurry straight to what I was looking for. Everything was in focus, no distorted images or feeling of detachment. I selected a few greetings cards and when I was done I stood in line without feeling edgy and paid without feeling like I needed out of there. Next I sat in the car with the kids while DH ran in to grab some pizza for lunch and I felt totally at ease. The journey home was as it should be with me and my family chatting.
What a change and the relief is immense. I am confident I am over the hardest part and should soon be planning ahead and enjoying living a 'normal' life.